Losing Weight- How to stay motivated

I have finally decided enough with the wishing and the praying, and that I am going to finally be serious about losing weight. I don't really want to lose a huge amount and I don't really have an ideal number of pounds that I want to lose. I just want to becoming smaller in some places and lose the lumps in others. I find that my problem areas are my thighs and my stomach, which is where most women have more added fat. I have been on this diet for 3 weeks now, and I can start to notice that I am feeling a lot better and shedding a tiny bit.

The diet that I am currently on is a low carb diet, which means that I can only have less than 150g of carbs a day. This diet is so easy, that I don't even consider it a diet. My meals consist of a banana with peanut butter in the morning, a salad with meat for lunch, and a toast with meat and steamed veggies for dinner. I personally have always eaten like this so I don't find it difficult. The reason I would struggle with my weight is because of the junk food I would eat on top of this. 

As I have previously mentioned, I am a huge chocolate fan. I haven't touched chocolate in 3 weeks! This is really big for me because I would have it multiple times a day, so I give myself a pat on the back for that one. I still crave chocolate every day and when I see the commercials or pass by a place that sells chocolates, it takes a lot for me to restrain myself, but I know it will be worth it.

I have been telling myself that this diet will only be for 3 months, until Christmas. It won't be forever, I will be able to have chocolate again. It's not the end. But I would say my major motivation would be my letter. At the beginning of my diet I wrote myself a letter. I wrote down how I felt, how I looked, how I wouldn't get the attention that I deserved. I wrote everything. In that letter I also listed all the events that will be coming up in my life that I have to look forward to and having a better body would only make these 100 times better. My key for motivation is this letter. I folded it and pinned it up on my bulletin board with the phrase "DON'T GIVE UP" written on it. I can't even tell you how much this letter is helping me. Seeing it everyday, and thinking about it whenever temptation gives in. I highly recommend writing yourself a letter if you want to lose weight.

I will keep you updated on my weight loss, hopefully I will continue to stay on track and my letter will bring me all the way there! 

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Long time no talk! Update & Confidence Ramble

Hello there! I know, I've been absent for the summer. Things got busy, and I was procrastinating. I'm sorry :( 

This summer has been crazy. I took some online summer classes in order to be able to transfer to a different University and to boost my GPA. It was fun, and I really enjoyed it. I also spent a lot of time with my family and friends, you know the usual stuff. But I think the most important thing that I've done this summer is regained my confidence. 

When I was in high school I went from being super confident to incredibly insecure. I didn't like how I looked, I wasn't doing the things I wanted to do because of the fear of being embarrassed, and I just wasn't being myself. This carried on to when I went to college, but it was slowly going away. I was breaking out of my shell a little more and I was a lot more open to trying new things. But I still wasn't completely myself.

This summer I traveled a lot, met up with old friends, and re-evaluated myself. I would lay there at night and just think about why I became so insecure and what made me feel so badly about myself. And honestly, there wasn't a legitimate reason. I had built up so much in my head about being ugly, being unwanted or unliked, when it wasn't even true. 

So finally after a month or so of examining myself, I decided that this insecurity needs to stop. I needed to stop putting myself down and beating myself up over the smallest of things, and take action. I have never been satisfied with my weight, and it's not like I am over weight, I just would prefer to lose a few pounds. So I have decided to do it and stick with losing the weight. I wasn't happy with the way I was acting when I went out to a party (I would exclude myself and be more of a wallflower), so I have been more interactive. This summer was full of change and I finally feel comfortable in my skin and am embracing the human that I am.

I know that as of right now I don't have very many followers, and the one's that I have may not care that much, but I am writing this for me. I have decided to do things that make me happy and not try to satisfy others instead of myself. That may sound a little selfish but it's just what I need to do for me. I love every single one of you who comments on my posts or even just reads this. It means the world to me, and together we can encourage girls to be more confident in themselves because why the hell not?!

More posts to come! :)