Hello there! I know, I've been absent for the summer. Things got busy, and I was procrastinating. I'm sorry :(
This summer has been crazy. I took some online summer classes in order to be able to transfer to a different University and to boost my GPA. It was fun, and I really enjoyed it. I also spent a lot of time with my family and friends, you know the usual stuff. But I think the most important thing that I've done this summer is regained my confidence.
When I was in high school I went from being super confident to incredibly insecure. I didn't like how I looked, I wasn't doing the things I wanted to do because of the fear of being embarrassed, and I just wasn't being myself. This carried on to when I went to college, but it was slowly going away. I was breaking out of my shell a little more and I was a lot more open to trying new things. But I still wasn't completely myself.
This summer I traveled a lot, met up with old friends, and re-evaluated myself. I would lay there at night and just think about why I became so insecure and what made me feel so badly about myself. And honestly, there wasn't a legitimate reason. I had built up so much in my head about being ugly, being unwanted or unliked, when it wasn't even true.
So finally after a month or so of examining myself, I decided that this insecurity needs to stop. I needed to stop putting myself down and beating myself up over the smallest of things, and take action. I have never been satisfied with my weight, and it's not like I am over weight, I just would prefer to lose a few pounds. So I have decided to do it and stick with losing the weight. I wasn't happy with the way I was acting when I went out to a party (I would exclude myself and be more of a wallflower), so I have been more interactive. This summer was full of change and I finally feel comfortable in my skin and am embracing the human that I am.
I know that as of right now I don't have very many followers, and the one's that I have may not care that much, but I am writing this for me. I have decided to do things that make me happy and not try to satisfy others instead of myself. That may sound a little selfish but it's just what I need to do for me. I love every single one of you who comments on my posts or even just reads this. It means the world to me, and together we can encourage girls to be more confident in themselves because why the hell not?!
More posts to come! :)
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